Richard's Page...

Hello - I'm Richard

I spend nearly half my life trapped in a form of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder which degrades not only my mental/emotional state, but which also destroys my physical health to the point of no return.

 

However, I recover completely by paying attention to the realities of how the body, mind and emotions work, and by acting on those realities conscientiously.

A Bit About My Story

I do not start out very well in this life folks.

 

My family of orgin has some serious challenges and while there are no "bad" people involved, my mum and dad are very damaged people. They struggle respectively with gross anxiety and fear v gross violence, addiction, and terrible damage to the inner self.

 

They do their best, but they also do not cope with their internal demons which manifest in hugely destructive ways that are not comprehensible by the mind of a child.

 

I internalise the toxic fallout from numerous traumatic events and suffer a mental and emotional breakdown as a 5 year old.

 

I undergo a catastrophic loss of self esteem, descend into a black pit of chronic depression and get worse over time until I end up as a socially dysfunctional loner who has no authentic relationships, who is bound up in destructive addictions, and who fails at everything in life that matters.

 

However, I never lose the desire to regain my right mind and so I bite the bullet and commit 100% to becoming OK, or perishing in the process of trying.

 

While I do not wish to perish, it comes very close to that and if not for a small miracle I would be well and truely in the ground by now.

 

Nevertheless, the process of walking the walk out of the mess of who I was and putting my mental and emotional demons to rest, has given me a very fine-grained appreciation of what positive, personal transformation is all about.

 

It is give-back-time for me, and hence the work of the RiverOfLifeFoundation.